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Emotional Bank Accounts: Emotional Self Expression | #Writing | #Honesty | #Life | #Obstacles | #Emotions | #Poetry | #Poems

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Zy Marquiez
June 17, 2019

It’s been a while since I have written anything under the ‘Emotional Bank Account’ moniker, but today something rather significant took place.

Without going into details, I read the equivalent of someone’s thoughts in a way that really hit home. Although what was written was incredibly significant, what I want to focus on here is the actual act behind it, which is just as so.

When an individual puts their heart into writing a piece, as a reader, you can really feel it; this act resonates to a great degree. It doesn’t matter what it is, passion and emotion are incredibly easy to gravitate too, no matter what form of media, not unlike a moth gravitating to a flame.

As an individual, self expression in general is incredibly crucial for countless reasons, not the least of which is intellectual and emotional freedom. But on a deeper level, self expression of someone’s deepest and most closely guarded emotions can be quite cathartic, as I discussed with the person that penned this piece. There’s more than that though.

When an individual writes something, or expresses their emotions to be precise, no matter the medium used, especially where they in fact are putting themselves in an incredibly vulnerable position, it creates a deeper resonance still since such actions hit closets to home.

Haven’t you ever seen a piece of art, and been so incredibly overwhelmed with it, that it makes you ponder life at levels you hitherto considered? Haven’t you ever seen a romantic movie, and viewed a particular scene, such as the ending of the Notebook for instance, and just had your heart just absolutely let loose in a tornado of emotions that you couldn’t control given the power and gravity of the scene? Haven’t you ever read a love letter, whether it was addressed to you or not, and whether fictional or not, and still identified with it so much that you were overwhelmed with emotion in ways you never thought possible? Such is the power of an individual expression, and it’s one of the clearest windows someone’s soul.

The kinship that the act of self expression can foster in another person is one of the greatest instances individuals can experience, and such is the power than one individual can have with another, or with the entire world.

Don’t ever be afraid to express yourself with the world, whether emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, creatively, or any other way you see as important.

When it comes to really matters in life, there’s nothing more important than that which comes from the deepest parts of your heart and soul.

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Author’s Note:

My apologies for not posting regularly, I have just had a lot going on in many fronts. I have been writing non-stop, I just haven’t been feeling like posting things just yet, although I had started working on a lot of things and have a few ideas that are in in their final-draft versions; I just simply haven’t had the emotional drive to push through in all honesty at the current moment. Hope you guys are all doing great.

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Zy Marquiez is an avid book reviewer, inquirer, an open-minded skeptic, yogi, and freelance writer who aims at empowering individuals while also studying and regularly mirroring subjects like Consciousness, Education, Creativity, The Individual, Ancient History & Ancient Civilizations, Forbidden Archaeology, Big Pharma, Alternative Health, Space, Geoengineering, Social Engineering, Propaganda, and much more.

Mindfulness Musing: Choices Made Out Of Fear & Love | #Life | #Choices | #Mindfulness

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Zy Marquiez
May 21, 2019

Today I made a choice that was totally fear-based choice. I state this because I usually try to be mindful and make love-based choices.

For clarification purposes, a fear-based choice is simply a poor quality of consciousness choice, while a love-based choice is a high quality of consciousness choice. More importantly, choices made out of love are choices that are good not because it’s the ‘right thing to do’, but because you are acting out of goodness. Making a choice as such means you’re doing it not because you’re expected too, but because it is who you are.

Many times people do the ‘right’ thing, but it’s not really who they are. They only carry out such choices because that’s what society expects of them, and not really because that’s who they are at the being level, all the way down at the soul.

The reason I state that is because it bothers me that I made a fear-based choice because I try and make positive choices, no matter how big or small the choice. It can be as simple as (1) being polite to someone, (2) saying hello to someone, (3) helping someone out, (4) giving an honest compliment, (5) being mindful of other’s needs, (6) telling someone you appreciate them, so on and so forth.

Even with all that, and the fact that I wanted to make a positive choice and was even incredibly mindful of it, I still acted out of fear. I thought about it for quite a bit, so it’s not like this was an autopilot choice out of fear, but still. I keep pondering about what choice I could have made that was different, but I can’t think of too many, and all were based out of fear.

The reason this is crucial is because choices based out of fear nigh ever lead to anything good, and stunt an individual’s evolution, if not make them devolve outright. This is where people begin making one fear based choice after another after another and they begin spiraling into turmoil and so on. I’ve seen this with a few family members so it’s something that I’ve been privy too quite often.

The opposite side of this spectrum is also true though. Choices made out of goodness and what’s right exacerbate an individual’s evolution and growth. And the same way consecutive negative choices compound into a snowballing avalanche of negative circumstances, consistent positive choices help an individual evolve in myriad positive ways creating a tsunami of positive change.

In any case, I share the above so that individuals may perhaps consider being cognizant whenever they make choices of various types.

Being mindful of the approach you take in life does take effort, but it’s always worth it.

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Emotional Bank Accounts: Executive Decisions | #Friends | #Family | #Life | #Help | #Obstacles

“As you grow older, you will discover you have two hands – one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.”
– Audrey Hepburn

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Zy Marquiez
May 10, 2019

For clarification purposes, in this blog post an ‘executive decision’ is simply when one person overrides the decision(s) of another or a group.

Under the right circumstances, one can end up using the term ‘executive decision’ with another person when the person is saying they want to go see movie A, when you know they will like movie B a lot more, so you make an ‘executive decision’ to override it. They enjoy the movie more, that’s that. Or, you choose to go somewhere, they say let’s go somewhere else, and that person overrules you because they know you’ll enjoy yourself more elsewhere and they are right. This process has to be a balanced give and take though, for if not a person might just be a control freak and want to call the shots all the time and employing double standards.

Now follow two examples where individuals might make an executive decision when it really matters.

In the first example I will use myself being on tilt in poker, which is an egregious mistake. If you play poker for any decent given length, you will experience tilt, which is letting your emotions and anger (when you lose) override your logic and mindfulness, and instead of playing holistically, you just play downright stupid. When I first began this happened now and then, but thankfully it was something I was able to learn, though slowly. There is no way on earth I could have played for a living without mastering this aspect of emotional control.

Now, in poker there are bad days, and there are really bad days. This is what separates poker from traditional work by a considerably margin. In traditional jobs, you show up, you get paid. Even if you’re having a bad day at work, your worst day ever, you always get paid. In poker, that’s not the case, not even close. Often, you can go days, weeks, or sometimes months without making money, but that’s usually more extreme scenarios, or if you play pot-limit Omaha for instance, since the swings your bankroll takes are massive.

Long story short, there was one time I was playing $200NL and was down a lot of money to one person, and was playing optimally at first. After getting eviscerated for hours, I was letting it get to me, and sure enough, my friend could see me visibly upset, angry, frustrated, basically playing like an emotional tornado to the nth degree. He did what any good friend would do, pointed it out, put his foot down, and I stopped. It took a lot of convincing because I was down a few thousand dollars to this one player, and he was atrocious at that, but that doesn’t matter. What mattered is that I wasn’t in charge of my mind, I wasn’t playing mindfully. I quit soon after that. We would do this for each other, or for other friends, and things would turn out okay. Worst case scenario though, you lose everything, your entire bankroll, which really sucks and it’s something I went through a few times early on, which only cements the lesson of how important it is to be in control of your emotions in the game of poker.

The second example where you might undertake an executive decision would be when someone is drinking. If you know somebody has had too many drinks, you can (1) ask them to take a cab home, (2) you can drive them home yourself, (3) ask for the keys, or if it comes down to it (4) take the keys yourself. I’ve done all those 4 with people and never regretted it once. At the time, it might cause friction if the person has had too many drinks and the person isn’t thinking straight, but it’s always better to be safe than sorry when lives are on the line.

Now, I open with those two examples because today I was in a situation with my Mom who was not doing too well health-wise. Her health was really close to “We’re going to the hospital right now, let’s go.” Let’s just say, it took a lot of convincing on her part but I told her that if she feels just an iota worse, we’re going no matter what; that, or if my instincts just felt the need to override hers for any given reason.

Usually, I wouldn’t be so pushy and take her word for it, but given that a few weeks ago she waited half a day before mentioning that she slipped, smashed her head on the counter and passed out, saying she didn’t mention it because it didn’t seem like a big deal and so on was really bothersome when it happened. And now, after losing my grandma not long ago, I’m even more afraid of the reality of her having significant health problems spiral out of control.

I mention all this because making ‘executive decisions’ between individuals, when the situation is crucial, can be complex and life changing. It can also be balancing act though.

If I’m playing poker, and I get upset after losing some hands, and it’s clear that I’m visibly upset, am I going to regain my composure, or am I going to let my emotions spiral out of control requiring? If someone is having a drink, when is one drink, one drink too many? With health, do you wait for the person to heal, or do you risk it? Do you even know the problem(s)? Those are fine lines if there ever were any.

All of these scenarios are entirely subjective, and that’s what makes them even more complicated. Whether it is one more poker hand, one more drink, or one more hour of someone’s health deteriorating, there is always an incredibly fine line that once crossed, only becomes that much harder to get back too, if at all possible.

I’m just thankful that as of now my Mom is doing better because I don’t want to think what would have happened otherwise. She seems to be doing fine though, so I’m thankful for that.

I would like to hear your opinions on these types of instances, or anything similar.

Where exactly is that line where a certain scenario goes from bad, to worse? When is that moment someone must intervene because you realize if you or someone else doesn’t, then the person’s life or livelihood could be on the line? How do you know when the time is right? Or is there even a ‘right’ time?

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‘Till I Collapse | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote |

Hear the thunder born asunder as it smashes blunders
Don’t collapse! Don’t relapse! But you crash & sunder

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: It’s started to storm significantly outside and if there were ever a mirror for my feelings, this is it.

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Torrid Frustration | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote |

If I stop and think I’ll quickly sink into torrid frustration
I won’t drop the ink, I’ll sickly think of horrid desolation

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: This echoes my sentiments at the moment perfectly. If I write, my mind is engaged, thinking. But if when I take breaks its a sinking feeling of mental quicksand.

Lastly, the picture is a metaphor for my mind at the moment.

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Past Recollections| #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote | #Memories

Above all past recollections that you feel deep within your heart
You love the last connections revealed that seep from the start

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: Trying to stay positive. I posted the pier because going to the beach was one of my favorite memories when growing up. I miss that place so much. Our family would go there and it was always a blast. Ironically, I was terrified of the water the first time I ever went to the beach, though that’s a really long story. Still though, the picture is a welcome change.

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Hollow Heart | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote | #Death

Do not allow a hollow heart to ever ask is this fair
Hallow, but don’t wallow apart forever in despair

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: This is just about trying to hold yourself together that’s all.

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