Depression & Mental Health | #Life | #Death | #Depression | #Suicide | #MentalHealth | #Psychology


BreakawayIndividual.com
Zy Marquiez
June 26, 2019

As a preamble, this piece on mental health is prompted by two different significant circumstances, one of which is personal, one of which is not, that took place the last day.  The personal component will lead to set the foundation for what follows.

This piece will only touch lightly on the subject of mental health as equal parts vent and equal parts reminder for others to make sure that whether you happen to know someone, or simply think someone else might have mental health concerns, let them know that you are there, no matter whatNo matter how many times it takes, for there are not enough ways to tell people you care for them.    

When any single person takes their life because they thought nobody was there for them, which has happened way more often than it ever should have, it shows the possibility that (1) these individuals were not told they were cared for, or loved, (2) they were told, but didn’t really believe it, (3) they were told, but they were not shown, (4) they were told and shown, but it never registered anyways, (5) they went through one of the above circumstances, but their health issues didn’t allow them to have their mental faculties in full, preventing them from noticing, or appreciating the truth behind someone’s actions, or (6) another issue altogether that couples to the above in a different way.

As it happens, I have been writing quite a bit about mental health the last couple of days, and all of this stemmed from a poem that I helped co-write, which was thankfully a collaboration with a very talented acquaintance that I only met nigh a week and a half ago or so.  During a conversation, she brought up the idea of a collaboration before me, and after we jumped at the chance, she settled on the topic of depression, which I didn’t mind whatsoever.

To say the least, the poem was incredibly thought provoking, and quite inspiring in a few different ways, which I kind of didn’t expect to be honest.  On a subjectively deeper level, this piece made me think of lots of personal emotions and issues that I haven’t delved into for quite some time for various reasons, and even downright buried for many years.  Having said that, what we wrote resonated with me so much that I have written dozens of poems of myriad types, some of which I plan on sharing in the future hopefully, including some the topic of depression, or darker subjects that revolve around mental health.

In fact, today, while I was stretching and writing poetry on this and other subjects, I got a text from a friend that said someone that we followed on social media had unfortunately passed away, which is where the second component of this blog posts comes in.

Through my friend I come to find out that Desmond “Etika” Amofah passed away due unfortunately to suicide.  Whether someone is a youtuber or not, it’s extremely unfortunate when someone takes their life, especially when there were significant mental health issues that were known for months beforehand, but this is also how it happens at times.

How I ran into Etika’s work was simply by watching him over a decade ago on Youtube covering gaming, which is something that I am incredibly fond of.  He was one of the content creators that clawed his way from the bottom and rose all the way to the top, and was incredibly popular for what he accomplished, and even inspired many in his journey.  I won’t cover much more than that given that there’s literally countless articles out there covering the deeper aspects of his life.  I simply mention this because although I didn’t know him, I did watch him enough to find an incredible affinity and kinship towards him, as many others have, when he was doing his work and it made me incredibly gloomy after hearing of his passing, especially given the circumstances.

The keystone point is, don’t ever assume people know you care, or even love them, and even if they do, they might still have problems reconciling that fact.  Everyone thinks differently, so how someone expresses how they care is vastly different from how another individual does.  Likewise, different people see acts of caring and love in different ways.  Some people see small circumstances and find a lot of caring and love behind it, others do not; some people express themselves in ways they think are obvious forms of caring and love towards others, but others might not see it that way given countless reasons.

With all of that in mind, it is downright crucial to show others that you care and/or them, whether they have mental health issues or not, but especially if they do.

Consistent acts of kindness, whether small or not, can go a long way to help others come out of the catacombs of mental health issues, or prevent them from getting there in the first place.

Never underestimate the power that showing others you care can have.  It might be the smallest gift you can give, but it might be the best gift someone could ever receive, because it just might change the course of their life forever.

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Author Notes:

[1] I say perhaps, because I am uncertain of what these individuals have gone through, or go through, but subjectively speaking I have found this to be true for myself and some close to me)

[2] Honestly, I wouldn’t had written this blog post if I hadn’t collaborated with the person I co-wrote that depression poem with.  It’s not that I don’t have appreciation for mental health issues, it’s just hard for me to speak about these issues subjectively given some things that have happened in my past.  But having had to privilege not only to write something on this very topic, but have it be meaningful in a way, incredibly so in fact for me personally, has nudged me in a direction that I hadn’t contemplated in going toward, but one that I appreciate to the fullest extent. I definitely let the person know that I appreciated the opportunity and I sure hope we can work together again, not only because (I think) we worked well together, but also because of how well the poem came out, but that will ultimately be up to them.

Either way, this situation is just one of those seemingly little circumstances that can change your outlook on many things, and make you realize that there are people out there that will relate with what you have to say at the deepest levels, and I haven’t been able to do that with this topic, not like that.  Especially given that I often mask emotions with metaphors and I am not as blunt as I am in my personal journal or random accounts I often employ in various nooks across the internet just to let off steam.

My main point is that many times people think that there aren’t others out there that care, or care enough to listen to them, or to help them wade through the issues, when in fact the opposite is true.  There are people that would walk through oceans of fire for them to make sure that they are okay.  But as I’ve alluded to elsewhere, many people often don’t show others that they care because they see the acts that they themselves undertake as ‘obvious’ acts of kindness, even when others might not see it that way.  And if a person sees their own actions as an obvious act of kindness and love, why wouldn’t others?  Simple: because not everybody thinks likes you, feels like you, acts like you, or ultimately lives like you, why is why you should never underestimate the power of acting out of love, no matter who this action is towards, and whether you know that person or not.

You all have a great evening, and no matter what, always show others you care.

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About The Author:

Zy Marquiez is an avid book reviewer, inquirer, an open-minded skeptic, yogi, and freelance writer who aims at empowering individuals while also studying and regularly mirroring subjects like Consciousness, Education, Creativity, The Individual, Ancient History & Ancient Civilizations, Forbidden Archaeology, Big Pharma, Alternative Health, Space, Geoengineering, Social Engineering, Propaganda, and much more.

Simplifying For The Sake Of Health | #Mindset | #Health | #Mindfulness | #SocialMedia

“Our life is always frittered away by detail.  Simplify, simplify.”
– Henry David Thoreau

“Simplify your thoughts, desires and life.  Complexities and confusion make a hell out of heaven.”
– Philip Arnold


BreakawayIndividual.com
Zy Marquiez
May 30, 2019

What follows is part vent, part blog post on simplicity, but it’s going to be a bit longer than my usual blog posts.  Although it might seem that I am meandering a bit, there’s a logical sequence to certain steps I (and others) took yesterday across various social media platform.  More on that in a moment though.

Yesterday, I wrote about meeting someone that just moved here that was a family member, and that was my uncle.  We got to talking about a variety of things, but one moment stood out most of all.

Sometimes in life, while you are talking to someone you get to a point where the conversation takes a very serious tone, the type of tone when you just have to shut the @#!$ up and let someone vent their heart out; this was one of those moments.  I let him vent about his health, life, and him not having too much time left, and then the conversation leveled out to less dismal topics.  This conversation left me incredibly emotional, though I masked it rather well (I hope) and I knew I just wanted to go home.  Why so?

Because it reminded me of a circumstance that took place when I was much younger, though both scenarios aren’t exactly alike, but you will understand why it reminded me in a second.

In the early 2000s, I visited Puerto Rico for the first time since we moved as a family to Arizona.  In a nutshell, at one point I wanted to take a picture with my grandma.  And anybody that knows me personally knows that I hate taking pictures.  I don’t mind it, but most of the time I don’t (usually) like taking pictures for reasons I will not get into here.  And a lot of the pictures that I have taken are always on my phone, mostly pictures with friends, family and so on.  This is because if I do end up taking a picture, it means a lot to me, which is why the pictures always with me.  That, or you have to be one of my conniving friends (bless their hearts) and sneak a picture when I least expect it.  Taking pictures of friends?  Sure, I love that; I love photography in general, and I love taking pictures of my friends.  But I’m not usually in a lot of the pictures.

The reason I say that is because even though I hate pictures where I’m in them, I wanted really bad to take a picture with my grandmother when we visited; so you know, I had to want to take a picture with my grandma really bad for me to even bring it up.  That last day, for hours, I hounded her about taking a picture with her and she wasn’t having it.  Her reasons were, because she didn’t look ‘good’ and so on.  I told her that I didn’t care, but she wasn’t having it.  In any respect, I gave up because she was getting annoyed and I didn’t want to bug her any longer.  Now when leaving, I just had this overwhelming feeling that I would never see her again.  I had never had a feeling like that before, and I thought it was stupid.  In reality, I didn’t know when we (or I) would be back to visit, but I just felt really overwhelmed.  It turned out that she passed away a couple of years later, all because a medical mistake in which the medical personnel didn’t read a damn chart.

I’ve searched everywhere, but I don’t think I ever took a picture with my grandma, at least not one that I can remember.  I’ve gone through family photos and so on, and all I’ve seen are her and I when I was much younger, a baby for instance.  Anyways, the point of this whole (lengthy) preamble is that, although I do have a feeling I will see my uncle again, he’s already on borrowed time.

This whole scenario with my grandma flashed in my mind, which made it hard for me to keep my composure because well, knowing that someone’s ticket with the reaper has already been punched will make anyone sad, if not downright depressed.

After we were done having dinner, we said our goodbyes, and I went home (and couldn’t get there fast enough) because I just wanted to lay down and not think, not that that’s possible but I just had to get home.  I get home, and after changing my mind, I write the blog post that I did, which involved my uncle because that was my way of sort of venting on the issue, but I held a lot back as is evident now.

From there, I end up deciding not to lie down, and instead opt to get on a variety of social media platforms to see if I can just talk to some friends and vent.  Lo and behold, it’s nothing but fire and brimstone everywhere, people arguing over the most inconsequential and trivial things that, in the grand scope of things, don’t really matter.  What’s worse is how everyone were treating each other (or me) in a few respects, so I was about to make a call and get some friends to do our usual Facebook mass purge of all of our accounts as well as on other social media, but someone beat me to the punch and was seeing if we wanted to start a group on Skype to do it all simultaneously while catching up.

Before going on, why would it be important for me to purge accounts on many social media platform?  This is because (1) I have already lost a few friends this year and it’s been the toughest year emotionally speaking yet that I can remember.  Moreover, as mentioned before, (2) my uncle is dealing with stage 3 cancer that can’t be handled and is already on borrowed time, (3) there’s a family member in a coma (not joking) that my lovely father just happens to tell part of the entire family weeks later because (you just can’t make this stuff up) he “didn’t think it was important”.

Predictably, I’m till downright furious about that.  ANY family member being in a coma, HELL, ANY HUMAN BEING, being in a coma, is as real as it gets.  Not only that, but there’s also (4) the issue of my Mom’s health where she doesn’t seem to be getting completely better even though the doctors say “everything is okay” and “the cancer is gone” (we’ve heard that one before).  Lastly, (5) I have been out of remission with my disease for months, and any stress affects it greatly, which is why I often seek a mindful approach, as well as employ yoga when I can at home or the gym.

My own personal reason for purging (or muting) accounts was due to stress and my goal to simplify where I can in my attempts to regain my health and get back into remission.  I can’t be the best me if I’m not healthy, and I can’t be healthy if I repeatedly expose myself to things that are stressful, no matter how mindful I am, and expect for significant progress to take place.  These were the vanguard reasons for me purging accounts of myriad types yesterday.

With this personally in mind, myself and others all started on Skype, but when the room got really crowded we moved to Discord, and we just began purging accounts for 6-7 hours or so.  It’s exhausting removing hundreds and hundreds of accounts from multiple Facebook accounts that I use for activism and the like, dozens on Instagram, WordPress, Twitter, you name it.

I just wasn’t having it any longer, my health’s too important for me to subject myself to things I don’t have too.  Some people, the ones I’ve known for a long time, I either told the straight up that I’m muting them because x,y,z, reason, and they understood.  Others, if we didn’t know them in any way shape or form, or had never even realized they were on our friends list, then they got removed, while also removing accounts that are constant negativity for the sake of negativity; that was the main approach for myself and my friends.  And people that I ‘kind of’, ‘sort of’, knew, it was fifty-fifty based on judgment calls for me personally.

It’s not like I don’t care about some of these people, I do.  But the bottom line is that, to a great extent, we are a product of our environments, History and Epigenetics have taught us this much.    If you end up subjecting yourself to stressful situations, negativity, and lots of things that you don’t have too, it’s just going to have detrimental effects on your being on an overarching basis.

Given that, at an emotional level, my plate is incredibly full and I’m already significantly stressed about many circumstances, I’m just going to be incredibly selective to what I expose myself too.  It’s not that I don’t care or simply won’t talk to people and debate, or that I will not at all read things that might seem dismal and so on; it’s just that repeatedly doing so when there’s no need to doesn’t make any sense.

This year has already been incredibly tough, and I know it’s going to get tougher with time given all the above and more.  I just don’t want to get to a point where I irrevocably shatter and can’t pull myself back together again is all.

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Suggested Reading:

Have You Ever Walked On The Moon?
What Do You Find Inspiring
Consciousness: The Key To Life
The Artist Of Eternity
Conformity Crisis: The War Between Conformists & Nonconformists
Never Underestimate The Power Of Imagination, The Power Of Dropping Seeds
The Artist & The Trance Of Inspiration
Stranger On The Moon
The Spectrum Of Balance
Mining For Inspiration
Wings Are Made To Fly, Seeds Are Made To Grow
Taking That First Step Towards A New Journey
My First Book The Twin Flame, Future Projects & More
Breakaway Individuals Throughout History: The Individuals, The Trailblazers & You
Why A Sound Mindset Is Crucial: The Light Side Of Mindset Vs. The Dark Side Of Mindset
Mindset Mindset Mindset!
A Sound Mindset Amidst The Obstacles Of Life
Mindwaves & Mindfulness
Modern Misteps Meet Mindfulness
Mindfulness & Zoning Out
Mindfulness & Music
Mindfulness Musings: Choices Made Out Of Fear & Love
How TV Robs You Of Your Life
How You Deposit A Truckload Of Black Pearls Into An Emotional Bank Account
How Are Your (Emotional) Bank Accounts Doing?
Emotional Bank Accounts: Investing In Yourself
Emotional Bank Accounts: Withdraw Withdraw Withdraw!
Emotional Bank Accounts: Mutual Funds
Emotional Bank Accounts: Trust
Emotional Bank Accounts: Dividends
Emotional Bank Accounts: Large Scale Withdraws
Emotional Bank Accounts: Deposits & Withdraws
Emotional Bank Accounts: Mutual Investments
Emotional Bank Accounts: Interest Rates
Emotional Bank Accounts: Gems Gems Gems, Babies Everywhere!
Emotional Bank Accounts: I Call Your 7 Cents & Raise You A Dollar
Emotional Bank Accounts: Account Closures
Emotional Bank Accounts: Anonymous Donations
Emotional Bank Accounts: Executive Decisions
How You Deposit A Truckload Of Black Pearls Into An Emotional Bank Account
How Are Your (Emotional) Bank Accounts Doing?
Poker & Life: Pulling The Friend’s Card
Poker & Life: Let There Be Range
Poker & Life: The Comfort Card
Poker & Life: Pulling The Mask Card
Imagination Unleashed
The Inherent Power Of Curiosity
Time Management: Eternity & A Day Will Never Be Enough
A 7 Cent Investment Into An Emotional Bank Account To Convert A Hater?
What Do You Find Inspiring?
Poker FlashBack: Swimming With Sharks, Swimming With Whales
Imagination Rises Out Of The Jaws Of Defeat
What’s Your Story?
Infusing Energy Into The Individual
You The Individual Are Author Of Your Own Journey, Of Your Own Destiny
Harry Potter Fans Trash Talk?  Say WHAT?!
Consciously Creating The Road Of Change, The World Of Tomorrow
What Are Your Personal Defaults?
A World Of Grays
Mindfulness, Loss & Friendship
The Opening Salvo, The First Minute
The Seeds Of Today, The World Of Tomorrow
Assumptions Are Mother Of All F@!$ Ups
Piercing Perspectives #1: Taking Things For Granted | Health & Mindset
Piercing Perspectives #2: You The Individual Are Extraordinary
Piercing Perspectives #3: The Divide & Conquer Left Right Paradigm
Piercing Perspectives #4: Poker As A Mirror For Life
The Individual, The Foundation Of Society

‘Till I Collapse | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote |


Hear the thunder born asunder as it smashes blunders
Don’t collapse! Don’t relapse!  But you crash & sunder

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: It’s started to storm significantly outside and if there were ever a mirror for my feelings, this is it.

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Suggested Poems:

Path Of Darkness, Path Of Light
Frightening Wonder
The Kraken
Past Recollections
Swarming Fears
Whirlwind Of Darkness
The Great White Whale
Torrid Frustration
Frozen Heart
Shattered Heart
Astounding Wonder
Frightening Storms
Ocean Of Frustration
The Morrow Knows
Inking Desolation
Relapse Of Sorrow
A Heart In Despair
Sea Dragon
Storm Of The 7 Seas
Days Go By
Zeus’ Fury
Grasping At Shadows
Words Are Like Swords
Skyquakes Asunder
The Sky Of Wonder Burnt Asunder
Dark Grays
Ghost Of Occlusion
Thunder Booms
Mist Of Dark Bliss
Frightening Forms
The Sparrow Chased The Morrow
Storm Of Worries
Onward Towards Rapture
Thunderbolts Of Fear
Aborn In Grays
Coping Deep Within
Tornado Of Fears
Wings Are Made To Fly
Daily Horror-Scope
Fraught With Despair
The Allure Of Purest Darkness
Hollow Heart
The Sky’s Laughter Is Blight
Locked Up
Despair

Torrid Frustration | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote |


If I stop and think I’ll quickly sink into torrid frustration
I won’t drop the ink, I’ll sickly think of horrid desolation

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: This echoes my sentiments at the moment perfectly.  If I write, my mind is engaged, thinking.  But if when I take breaks its a sinking feeling of mental quicksand.

Lastly, the picture is a metaphor for my mind at the moment.

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Suggested Poems:

Path Of Darkness, Path Of Light
Frightening Wonder
The Kraken
Past Recollections
Swarming Fears
Whirlwind Of Darkness
The Great White Whale
Frozen Heart
Shattered Heart
Astounding Wonder
Frightening Storms
Ocean Of Frustration
The Morrow Knows
Inking Desolation
Relapse Of Sorrow
A Heart In Despair
Sea Dragon
Storm Of The 7 Seas
Days Go By
Zeus’ Fury
Grasping At Shadows
Words Are Like Swords
Skyquakes Asunder
The Sky Of Wonder Burnt Asunder
Dark Grays
Ghost Of Occlusion
Thunder Booms
Mist Of Dark Bliss
Frightening Forms
The Sparrow Chased The Morrow
Storm Of Worries
Onward Towards Rapture
Thunderbolts Of Fear
Aborn In Grays
Coping Deep Within
Tornado Of Fears
Wings Are Made To Fly
Daily Horror-Scope
Fraught With Despair
The Allure Of Purest Darkness
Hollow Heart
The Sky’s Laughter Is Blight
Locked Up
Despair

Past Recollections| #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote | #Memories


Above all past recollections that you feel deep within your heart
You love the last connections revealed that seep from the start

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: Trying to stay positive.  I posted the pier because going to the beach was one of my favorite memories when growing up.  I miss that place so much.  Our family would go there and it was always a blast.  Ironically, I was terrified of the water the first time I ever went to the beach, though that’s a really long story.  Still though, the picture is a welcome change.

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Suggested Poems:

Path Of Darkness, Path Of Light
Frightening Wonder
The Kraken
Swarming Fears
Whirlwind Of Darkness
The Great White Whale
Frozen Heart
Shattered Heart
Astounding Wonder
Frightening Storms
Ocean Of Frustration
The Morrow Knows
Inking Desolation
Relapse Of Sorrow
A Heart In Despair
Sea Dragon
Storm Of The 7 Seas
Days Go By
Zeus’ Fury
Grasping At Shadows
Words Are Like Swords
Skyquakes Asunder
The Sky Of Wonder Burnt Asunder
Dark Grays
Ghost Of Occlusion
Thunder Booms
Mist Of Dark Bliss
Frightening Forms
The Sparrow Chased The Morrow
Storm Of Worries
Onward Towards Rapture
Thunderbolts Of Fear
Aborn In Grays
Coping Deep Within
Tornado Of Fears
Wings Are Made To Fly
Daily Horror-Scope
Fraught With Despair
The Allure Of Purest Darkness
Hollow Heart
The Sky’s Laughter Is Blight
Locked Up
Despair

Hollow Heart | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote | #Death


Do not allow a hollow heart to ever ask is this fair
Hallow, but don’t wallow apart forever in despair

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Note: This is just about trying to hold yourself together that’s all.

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Suggested Poems:

Path Of Darkness, Path Of Light
Frightening Wonder
The Kraken
Swarming Fears
Whirlwind Of Darkness
The Great White Whale
Frozen Heart
Shattered Heart
Astounding Wonder
Frightening Storms
Ocean Of Frustration
The Morrow Knows
Inking Desolation
Relapse Of Sorrow
A Heart In Despair
Sea Dragon
Storm Of The 7 Seas
Days Go By
Zeus’ Fury
Grasping At Shadows
Words Are Like Swords
Skyquakes Asunder
The Sky Of Wonder Burnt Asunder
Dark Grays
Ghost Of Occlusion
Thunder Booms
Mist Of Dark Bliss
Frightening Forms
The Sparrow Chased The Morrow
Storm Of Worries
Onward Towards Rapture
Thunderbolts Of Fear
Aborn In Grays
Coping Deep Within
Tornado Of Fears
Wings Are Made To Fly
Daily Horror-Scope
Fraught With Despair
The Allure Of Purest Darkness
The Sky’s Laughter Is Blight
Locked Up
Despair

Frozen Heart | #Poetry | #Poem | #Prose | #Love | #Family | #Darkness | #Writing | #Loss | #Quote | #Death

An arrow sliced the sparrow, now someone copes with streams of tears
As the sorrow iced the morrow of someone’s hopes & dreams with fears

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Zy Marquiez | The Lightning Baron
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Suggested Poems:

Path Of Darkness, Path Of Light
Frightening Wonder
The Kraken
Swarming Fears
Whirlwind Of Darkness
The Great White Whale
Shattered Heart
Astounding Wonder
Frightening Storms
Ocean Of Frustration
The Morrow Knows
Inking Desolation
Relapse Of Sorrow
A Heart In Despair
Sea Dragon
Storm Of The 7 Seas
Days Go By
Zeus’ Fury
Grasping At Shadows
Words Are Like Swords
Skyquakes Asunder
The Sky Of Wonder Burnt Asunder
Dark Grays
Ghost Of Occlusion
Thunder Booms
Mist Of Dark Bliss
Frightening Forms
The Sparrow Chased The Morrow
Storm Of Worries
Onward Towards Rapture
Thunderbolts Of Fear
Aborn In Grays
Coping Deep Within
Tornado Of Fears
Wings Are Made To Fly
Daily Horror-Scope
Fraught With Despair
The Allure Of Purest Darkness
The Sky’s Laughter Is Blight
Locked Up
Despair